Love x Hate

I used to tell myself, you were angel that came from heaven. I still do.

I used to tell myself, I wanted only the best for you. I still do.

I used to tell myself, you were all that I needed. I still do.

I used to tell myself, your smile could light up my day. I still do.

I used to tell myself, I couldn't live without you. I still do.

I used to tell myself, I could look at you all day. I still do.

I used to tell myself, I love you. I still do.

I used to tell myself many more things about you. I still do.

For each day that passes, I feel a part of myself breaking away from me.

I love you. You have him. He loves you. I stay behind.

You know. You don't care.

I tell myself to hate you over and over again. I cannot.

I tell myself to forget you over and over again. I cannot.

I ask myself, Do I love you?

I squirm my eyes,

I listen intently,

and a whisper deep within my heart resonates...

I do...

Good night.