Regret

the feeling you feel when you've just done something you wish you haven't. you would give anything just to turn back the hands of time and correct your mistakes, but it's already too late.
"I really regret hurting the woman that I love."
"I have many regrets in life, but you were not one of them."

taken from www.urbandictionary.com

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

KL trip...

Last sunday, I went to KL for a short trip^^ but it was fun^^

I went with a few of my friends from around here and Kuantan... We had to go to the bus station at 5am... Then we had to wait for about half an hour... Talk about the bus being late... 

Excluding meals, we went to visit “星洲总社” frst and we interacted with some of the KL xue ji's^^ They were very nice to (us) me^^ I learnt many things lol^^ The way they "care" for the rookies for example^^ hehe... so sad...^^

Due to the massive amount of time wasted there, we did not go to the National Library (what a waste). Instead, we went to Times Square, albeit wasting even more time being stuck in a jam. However, we saw a group of men and 1 of them was "kind" enough to dance a short break dance for us to see^^. Nice^^

I wanted to shop at Times Square but my sister had to drag me and a few of my friends to play games... haiz... boring... I was to envious of the beauty and artisticsm (is there a word like this?) of their clothes^^ Too late though. 

I did not go home with them cause my parents had things to do at KL, so they brought me home... Sad.. I missed a lot of things... T.T

Still, I missed many things by going to the trip... One way or another, I had to choose... T.T

It's almost time for Chinese New Year^^

Hehe... School is boring + busy... So many things to do, so little time do finish them... But for me, that little time = too much time wasted on homework... T.T

haiz...

Today I gave people the new year greeting cards i wrote, hope they were happy at getting them^^

To my friends who are in the pingpong and chess competition, the best of luck to you all^^

Saturday, January 17, 2009

闲

每一天都重复着同样的生活:

早上-起身后洗刷然后上学,之后就读书……
中午-放学,回家冲凉吃饭然后补习。
下午-回来看戏休息然后发呆……
晚上-还是看着戏…… =.=
过了十二点-才肯把上床,然后再发呆……

我的生活是不是很闲?

haiz..... 只从他走了后,我的生活乐趣少了很多……
真的只有一个字能形容——“闲”

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

School start for 1 week already...

Still confused la... Don't know all my tuition time yet... Haha...

Can do what leh... All day slack will become lazy... KL trip this sunday!!! Whee~ Can meet everyone and play once more^^ Haha...

Reminding myself to bring a camera!!!! I read Sonnet 18 today^^ Its quite a simple poem lolz... Romantic in the eyes of some of my friends... =.= I didn't find it any good... I dunno why it felt empty... Mabye it's because I'm empty of feelings at that moment??? So sad... Haha...^^

Also, my last year's Form teacher came and gave us each a piece of paper to write a short text. Sian.... In any case, I have to go to school later for sports practice^^ That's all^^

Thursday, January 8, 2009

愿望3

不知不觉中,我的心早已飞到你的四周,无时无刻地围绕着你,看着你。直到我发现它失踪时,已经太迟了,因为它早已被你深深的迷住了。

爱一个人,是需要原因的吗?因为我已经不由自己地淹没在你的情海之中了。没有见到你,我想念你,见到你,我很开心,有机会可以跟你说话,我更开心……可是,我想要做的事情,有几个可以实现的呢?

虽然如此,我还是很希望,能有一天我们可以无忧无虑的开始参入对方的生活,展开无边无际的情感。

……我爱你……

Love x Hate

Love or hate... Not a single second passes without me thinking deeply about you... Everyday I feel as if you fill up every single part of my life, and yet, each time I cannot stop myself from hating you. Whether it is your choice to ignore me and then look for me only when you have to, or it is my fault as I never approached you, I do not know... However, I truly wish that you would actually acknowledge me as someone special in your life, someone who whould be there whenever you need him, the person who would be able to be with you all his life, be it joy, grief, bliss, woe, mirth, agony, frolic, hardship, melanchony, rue or jubliance. Undaunted by anything save the thought of you leaving him... Someone who you would share all your happiness with, as you would tell all your deepest fears, heartfelt remorse, acrid anguish, innocent hopes and more...

Someday, I hope that the light would shine upon us to guide our intertwined routes towrads a better future where we would be able to truly know each other and become anything we want without having to be bound by oaths, characteristic masks, words, unrequited love, illusions of the mind and more...

What I truly wish for, is for us to be together forever, untouched by time and space, each put under a violatile spell, unbreakable by distance nor death, to be cursed, yet blessed, to be together for eternity, to love and care, and to bring happiness to all who are around us.

On my birthday, for my third wish, I wish to be with the person I love. Together, Forever...

I love you, there's nothing to be done that can change this magical thought...